Mainly that Saul was on his way to Damascus and then he was struck and blinded by a bright light. Donnelly seems to represent pessimism and bitterness. The number 21 "Dear Esther" is a moving play written by Richard Rashke, one of the greatest researchers about Sobibor, the most secret nazi death camp. Disfigured? There are ghosts on this island, but to be honest, as there are 5 of them, I am to assume they are Esther, Paul, Donnelly, Jacobson and one other. Dear Esther, what’s in it and what does it add up to? Genres : Adventure I believe that The Narrator is actually walking that island, recollecting the accident and the events following it, and comparing it to Donellys book. The Narrator tries to find the location of the accident, having driven up and down the motorway 21 times, but cannot find it. Although I'm not convinced of the Esther / Donnelly and Paul / Jacobson same person scenario. The Dear Esther concept began in 2007, emerging from a research question proposed by Dr Dan Pinchbeck of Portsmouth University. us), but then the screen darkens and the rest of the scene is shown from the eyes of the narrator when he did this journey the last time. You are the narrator, you keep coming back, not having resolved the issue, which bothered your mind. A video game version of "a man is an island", if you will. Himself) to leave a marking of himself, which he said he was searching for at one point.. a mark of one of the previous visitors that is. Both are addictive, impairing and they compound their effects if taken together. I have never tried a game like this before, but the second Amnesia game inspired me, and I must say, I was by no means disappointed. Future US, Inc. 11 West 42nd Street, 15th Floor, Esther A little gem of an experience can be found while trawling through the extensive list of games on Steam called "Dear Esther". A year later, fresh from a stint on Mirror's Edge, a level designer showed up. Dear Esther, at its core, is a story about a man, the Narrator, who lost the woman he loves, Esther, and his struggle to come to terms with her death. If you are now enticed to spend just a few quid on this delightful work of art, don't read anymore as it will spoil it for you. He either sought it out physically after the crash because it reminded him of his wife and he wanted the isolation because he couldn’t cope or his dementia brought him there. I have a hypothesis that last scene of the game is shown partiually from the eyes of two persons. I think that we play not as a narrator, but as some abstract creature managed to get on this island (someone the narrator described as "the one who will come after me"). Outside, foliage sways and leaves blow in the breeze, as the moon forms a striking reflection on the eerily calm ocean. He planned to build his house, raise animals and eventually have a family. The beacon is a beacon of hope, far away at first but the narrator makes it past the dangerous cliffs to get there in the end. Esther is trapped in the car, presumed dead as the car had to be cut to get her out and it looked as though it was "dropped from a great height". I figured that I was that person. Looking back on this I can recall two things one, he mentions that someone (not sure who, possibly Paul?) It is supposed that 21 gramms is the weight loss when soul leaves body. Certainly ties in with the rest of story. Pauls Death NY 10036. Also, Ive read somewhere that where you use the source engine to save a file, it is titled "Paul", which could lead to another interesting interpretation: That you are actually playing as Paul following in the footsteps of the narrator, which would explain why everything was already set up in front of you. But it's also – and this is really important to me – about love and hope and redemption, and how people cling to each other in the face of a brutal, uncaring world.”. The eponymous lighthouse could be Esther herself, but in order to progress in the game, i.e. which is like questioning if esther's death was meant to happen and if he was meant to go through all of this. Whats with the number 21? The final phrase ("Come back") is also for the player, not for the narrator. “It came from this idea that you could do more with storytelling in games if you stopped worrying about everything making sense and adding up, and that when you read a book or watch a film, you are filling in a lot of those details yourself. The original rendition of Dear Esther was one of several Source Engine mods developed by The Chinese Room while the studio was still a research project at the University of Portsmouth. At the end he makes mention of someone else coming to the island to find out about and remember him, the same way he did with Donnelly. “Which is massive,” he says. At the beginning of the game you sea a single seagull in the toilet (sort of metaphor for secretion and the end/also ongoing circle). As Dear Esther begins, the protagonist stands at the entrance to a deserted island quickly revealed as being in the Outer Hebrides.Behind the protagonist is a short concrete path leading into the ocean. and what about those origami boats newspaper-maded? the theories of the birds makes so much sense to me and help me understand the game much better. The Dear Esther game before this version warned you of that. Thats all, hope this helps. Thank you to everyone who commented in this thread and left links. Obviously, the narration and images could be conveyed in either medium, but … “So I've always seen it as a piece of digital, interactive art. Too bad the level of english needed was a little bit high, I couldn't catch everything... also the lack of running made it a little bit frustrating while exploring but I guess that was part of it. Now he has created an alternate personality to disassociate himself from the tragedy and guilt, is no longer "blind" and he is essentially two minds living in one man... Ghost... Thing. it was on the ground. So please, do not read on if you've not played it, and if you haven't played it, wait until it comes down to £1.74 on Steam and pick it up. The Car Accident And it is quite enthralling, it is a beautiful scenic experience, and as I have an eye for detail I am loving it. The audio clips tell you about the island's history while simultaneously documenting a terrible accident back home in England. I always want to ask people if they've ever stared at a painting and wondered what the story was behind it, or imagined being able to transport themselves through that small window into the world and explore it. A lot of comparison is done between the island and the car accident. Does anyone what does this mean? Donnelly The project was funded by a grant from the Arts and Humanities Research Council and led by Dan Pinchbeck, a professor and lecturer at the university. I don't know who the narrator is but reality and coma blurring together were interesting. At the end of the first cave, looking over the other side of the cliff, towards the first cave with the drawings, i saw a red light flashing. Miasmata is a unique survival adventure that has you attempting to cure yourself from a deadly disease. Subtle hints such as the inability to die throughout the game, the scene with the underwater city, and the transformation at the end seem to fit this hypothesis. I just finished the game, and i noticed (sorry, can't remember exact location) there is a very small picture on the ground. what about the paintings? It also explains the unearthly cave system, ghosts, candles, bioluminescent paint, fungi and the voice of the Narrator. As a result I discover some of the island’s mystery within seconds of playtime. This book is a portrait of the most horrible episode of modern history and must be in every school's library. During the summer of 2008, a Half-Life 2 mod changed the way I thought about games. Esther was originally created as part of a research project at the University of Portsmouth, and one of that project's pillars was that its games should function as actual, playable titles that the community could respond to. He brought 2 sleeping bags - 1 is in the cave by the first trawler, where the bowl of bones and the suit are. I have enjoyed the comments from others here. And a special thanks to the people who explained the pictures and diagrams, there’s no way that I would’ve figured out those parts without your help. Goodbye. I believe the kidney stone pain the narrator experienced or the psychic break which occurred after Esther died helped develop a dependency on laudanum or pain killers. However, I didn't quite understood who's the hermit the narrators' talking about... And did he paint everything himself ? He managed to become a seagull, but the player just fell from the top and "died". I don't know. Dear Esther is something I would consider as being beyond a game and more of an interactive experience. I think there is a lot more to this game than meets the eye until you play it a few times, but it could just be a reflection of life itself as you said, in that you perceive things differently than every other human being, so why not this as well? im still trying to figure out what it’s for. That pretty much confirms it then, yes I know the bridge you're referring too. So there we are, that is what I have interpreted from the game and imagined in my mind. Instead, it simply presented a Hebridean island for you to explore, and an unusual story of motorways and science experiments that fell into place as you did so. The island itself is no less intriguing. His name is not revealed at any point in the game. I am in the camp that believes she was pregnant at her death. Lot's wife is mentioned in Genesis 19, and is also mentioned in the game. You will never figure it out. The morning after I was washed ashore, salt in my ears, sand in my mouth and the waves always at my ankles, I felt as though everything had conspired to this one last shipwreck. Dear Esther is a ghost story. I also think that Esther and Donnelly, and Paul and Jacobson are in fact the same people, and that Esther and the Narrator already had kids, since the Narrator stated it before (it would be extremely difficult for a woman in her 50s to be having a child). ), it also appears Esther was pregnant with the Narrators child. She has died, while in the presence of The Narrator and a gentleman called Paul. “It's important that we all keep pushing at the potential emotional range of gaming and how subtle we can make a player's emotional journey,” he says. Donnelly is the parallel he draws to himself, retreating from life like the hermit and getting lost in thoughts like the hermit paints his cave as a museum. when it comes to 21 i think it has significance because it intertwines everything in the entire story. But it's also a character story. However, that real location does not have the banks by the motorway like the game does, and the signage displaying the turn off for the junction is different in layout. Forget the normal rules of play; if nothing seems real here, it’s because it may just be all a delusion. Rather than traditional game-play the focus here is on exploration, uncovering the mystery of the island, of who you are and why you are here. @doublecurry well this I guess is where Dear Esther works its magic - the interpretations are endless, is it real? Maybe this is a representation of fond memories. I love the above comments, and I hope I can contribute, as a neuroscientist. Then come back. It is not clear how or when Paul died, but certainly by the start of the game, Paul has died, perhaps commited suicide with guilt. “What I hope about Esther is that although it is fairly dark, there are subtle tones to that: an ebb and flow that makes it an interesting journey that we can all recognise, rather than just us standing there hitting the player with the tragedy hammer until they give in.”. (see EDIT under Esther). If he physically intact during the game and this entire journey was only in his mind then it means that he achieved catharsis and he decides to live and move on. Dear Esther holds the title of the first successful 'walking simulator', a genre that eschews classical definitions of game-hood in favor of being something more akin to an interactive art piece. You really need to take cues from the environment as to what's going on, but even so, it's designed to be ambiguous with a 'whatever you want' interpretation. I am inclined to think that his age sits him in his 50s, the voice you here is also definately suited to a man at this age. “My reasoning behind it was that Rob was creating something so extraordinary, it deserved a wider audience than we could give it as a mod,” he explains. This is where the game is set, an island in the outer Hebrides, which can be seen from the mainland as The Narrator tells us he can see the mainland. Developed as part of a research project at the University of Portsmouth, Dear Esther featured no shooting and no puzzles. Thanks for the help figuring the story out. I also think that narrator and Paul are the same person (even their conversation was in narrator's mind), and the car crash was narrator's fault. The way I see it, the player could either be the grief-stricken demented Narrator who is trapped in an endless spiral and seeking meaning and purpose or the player could be Esther herself. Chemical equations etched into the sides of a cavern. As I'm looking for pictures that show what I've seen, I have stumbled upon this wikia page! https://dearesther.fandom.com/wiki/Dear_Esther_Script. I know that a good deal of the chemical compounds you see plastered on the island are that of ethanol CH3CH2OH, often abbreviated as C2H5OH or C2H6O. I've only finished playing it once , so this is a complete shot in the dark. I saw that too! Other interpretations may be just as right or more so! “I think we've been in an amazing period of creative expansion in games for a couple of years, and that ranges right from really left-field independent titles to mainstream AAAs. And then, you turn into a gull and you fly off. nerve and chimical stuff? He falls in and experiences endless pain trying to even reach the surface again. He had been drunk when the accident occurred, and he feels responsible. Gosh! Car parts in the caves, sonograms in the houses, he mentions diagrams of chemical components on posters on the walls of the waiting room. For Briscoe, Dear Esther's main weakness was the island itself. The story was intended to be vague, the clues sparse, randomly doled out and inconsistent. I still don’t understand where all the luminous paint came from! © In that case, that brings the question, the three doves at the end, is that the narrator, Esther and the unborn child? The story was fascinating, the ideas great, but the island worked against the game: players were getting lost, or stuck, or bored. After the accident, The Narrator travels to meet Paul in his home in Wolverhampton. I remembered nothing but water, stones in my belly and my shoes threatening to drag me under to where only the most listless of creatures swim. Along the way, messages of despair are scattered around, as well as multiple setbacks of subsequent falls that continue to take effort to recover from. Coincidence that the two are in reference to each other? Dear Esther was originally a short mod built with Valve’s Source engine and released in July 2008 by thechineseroom, a developer connected to Portsmouth University (UK).It was primarily designed and written by Dan Pinchbeck, a lecturer and researcher at the university, who wanted to explore what was left when the normal game mechanics in a first-person shooter are removed, … The Narrator’s dialogue tells us that Paul was quickly weathered under his sense of guilt and the weight of responsibility. “I often find myself avoiding the word 'game',” he says, “preferring to describe it as more of an experience or story. This I guess is relating to the car accident. Is he dead already? I can't see the caves of chapter three as anything else than the deep hole that the narrator digs for himself. Also, the Narrator talks of the "traffic backing up all the way to Salford", which makes this a viable location. You learn of a syphilitic shepherd, an explorer whose infected injury sent him insane, and a man destroyed by guilt after a fatal car accident. He also tries to compare Esther to Donnelly, Jacobson to Paul. I also saw what seems to be the shape of a fetus/infant face in the clouds (seen at 22:08 at this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2s816SS0EL8)... really creepy but too distinct to be accidental in my mind. Adrenaline, Bufotenine (psychedelich drug produced by particular toadskins, similar to DMT), ranitidin (anti acid-reflux), and a cryptic one i dont know. Jacobson / Jakobson The story and script were composed by Pinchbeck, who cited the works of William S. Burroughsas influential in the writing: "... looking at the way William Burroughs worked structu… A demonstration of all of the scientific reasons for why the crash happened. The precise location of the accident remains a debate, but The Narrator does say it was somewhere between the Sandford Junction (Junction 21) and the Welcome Break Services (Junction 19). Pinchbeck expected that this may turn players off, leaving people bored and unfulfilled. @johny good spot, could well be. So I've just finished the game and was completely stunned by its brilliance. “It allowed me to create a much more rich and detailed world than ever attempted before in the engine,” he explains, “which encourages and rewards exploration with the incentive of uncovering small clues and details about the history of the island, its inhabitants and our protagonist.”. I think the narrators time on the island takes place years after his wife's death. Paul I'm going to have to replay Dear Esther at some point, even after so many years, questions still have no answers. @Maxx Never too late! So the next question is, 'what happens if you commercialise that? and then maybe in the end the narrator’s ghost turns into a bird before it hits the ground? Having played it twice through now and studied others interpretations, here's mine with pointers on key items. Sounds rather harmless, and it is. The one thing I am trying to discern are the surgical tools and the blood. He declares, "My disease is the internal combustion engine and the cheap fermentation of yeast." Hi Mathew, I really liked your article on Dear Esther. I just played it (only one playthrough) and thought that the island is a metaphor for the narrator himself. The Narrators death http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydra_(genus). @mac the chemistry book I'm going to guess is related to the alcohol subject. Not long ago Esther and The Narrator were travelling in the same car along the M5 between Exeter and Bristol. You can't escape this circle, before it is "finished". 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